I've been reading my old blog posts and some of the entries I have on my old blog site, the emo one (laughs), and I can't help but to reminisce those days when a lot have been happening in my life. Well, it's still the same but at least now, I now where I'm heading to. As for the resolutions? Well, let's just say until now, I'm still working on some of them.
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I just wanna share it with you, and for a change not talk about makeup (or food). Sorry if this would bore you though. I had fun reading thru it, makes me realize that I haven't really changed that much all these years. Hehehe!
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the year that was…
i remember posting a blog entry on another
blogsite with the same title a year ago. i think that was the first
day of 2007, right after our usual Media Noche and when everybody else was
sleeping. that was when i want to have a recap of all the things that
happened to me on the year 2006. mejo senti, since i bravely posted all
the good things and even the bad or maybe worst things that happened to me that
year. and i intend to do it all again this time. :)
- i just came out from a long time relationship
that ended at the latter part of the year 2006 so i would say that the early
part of 2007 was spent still trying to work things out between my ex-fiance and
at the same time trying to accept the fact that it was indeed over.
(yeah, magulo…sometimes i’d be okay…sometimes not)
- january, with a lot of convincing from my BFF,
i was able to travel to Cebu and experience the Sinulog. I was not really into
travelling but she told me that having some time without him would be a great
idea. So to Cebu and Bohol we went. Until now, i still can’t
imagine how i was able to manage walking down the streets of Cebu while
watching the sinulog festival na sobrang init ang araw…but it was fun!
- came february, i’ve decided to move out of
“our” place and live somewhere else. yep, i waited four months before
finally deciding on moving out. but eventually, i’ve realized (actually,
both of us did) that it would be the best for the both of us.
- i got involved with somebody…but eventually, it
didn’t work out. I dont really wanna expound on this topic, i don’t
regret it though but i’ve realized that it wasnt really meant to be.
- i remained friends with my ex-fiance and we
both agreed that we need time for ourselves. this i had a hard time
trying to sink in my little stupid brain. hehehe
- i dunno if my performance at work finally paid
off or its just that they don’t want me to resign like everybody else in our
team did, but i got a salary raise. not bad na rin…but of course, it
comes with a price. Imagine, being the only tester for all the projects
being done in the company?
- i came to realize that those people i usually
take for granted would be the same people that i’d be able to count on at times
that i’ll just breakdown because of too much stress, frustration, loneliness,
etc. i was finally able to know who my real friends are and how important
my family is to me. i developed a stronger bond with my mom, it was like
being a little child again who’s in need of guidance and attention. sabi
nga ng mom ko, i came back to being a baby but the good thing is, she was given
a chance to take care of me unlike before because i grew up without her since
she was working abroad back then.
- as expected, moving on from my relationship
with my ex-fiance became harder that i imagined. it was like being on a
rollercoaster ride.
- i’ve realized what i wanted to do: and
that is to be able to work abroad and help my family first before worrying on
relationships. yeah, i am not getting any younger but who am i to
complain if this is indeed the life that was planned for me right? i need
to do a lot of thinking and exert a lot of effort to do what i most need to do
and that is to love myself first.
- i was able to meet new friends from a message
board, started to become active on other forums as well. it may be
mababaw for others but i was able to find new friends thru our common interest,
which is makeup :) and that really gave me the realization that aside
from my current career, i also want to be a makeup artist. or maybe i was
just trying to find an excuse for my addiction for makeup? hehehe
- eventually, i became so stressed with work and
to add to that, the continuous struggle to move on with my life. i had
difficulty sleeping that most of the time, i’ll just have 1-2 hrs of sleep a
day. i tried taking in different kinds of sleeping tabs just to help me
sleep but nothing seemed to work. i was like an addict trying to look out
for new drugs to take. i know it’s not good to depend on medicines,
but i need it or else i’d die eventually or lose my job because i can hardly
concentrate on my work and a little argument with my boss stresses me to
death. i had to see a doctor and finally, he gave me some medications to
help me. i don’t depend on it too much though…i don’t intend to be an
addict in the first place.
- i dunno what’s with the latter part of the
year, but it’s when i get more stressed and frustrated. just before the
holidays, we had to move out of our place and find a new one in one week’s
time. it was also the time when there were a lot of things to be
done at work. imagine getting out of the office at 5am and packing my stuff
and moving them out of the old place and moving them in to the new one?
for 1 week, i’ve been doing that and in no time i looked like a dead man
walking with these horrible eyebags. that was also the time that stress
has taken its toll on me that one little bad thing that would happen to me
would cause me to cry like a baby. there was even a time that i’ve been
worrying too much that i lost balance and dropped on both knees leaving me with
bruises that you see on little kids but not on a 28-yr old stupid bitch!
- but as the old cliche goes “everything else
will fall into place in time” i was able to overcome all the not so good things
that happened to me during the past year. there have been several
instances as well when i really felt that God has been saving me from harm and
from doing things that i will regret later on. He made me realize that
despite the things that have happened to me, i am still blessed and lucky for
having people who continue to support and love me for who i am and not for who
they wanted me to be.
to sum it up… i can say that the year that was
became an eye-opener for me. it helped me realize what are the things
that are more important in life and to be thankful for everything that comes
your way…be good or bad. everything happens for a reason and I know that
He knows what’s good for me and what’s not. and unlike last year, 2007
ended with a blast since i’ve celebrated it with my family (as usual) but
this time, it became more special since i was able to realize the importance of
having these people around who really loves you no matter what.
so Happy New Year everyone! May God
continue to bless us all…
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my new year's resolutions…
hmmm…i’ve been trying to come up with a list
every year like the others but i can honestly say that i haven’t been able to
do most of them, well, if not all.
pathetic, if i may say. and yeah, i am
really pathetic when it comes to keeping promises i made to myself.
like when i would say “i will no longer be as trusting as before” but i
will still end up feeling like a trash when somebody had broken my trust.
i can’t seem to learn my lesson when it would involve other people.
so this year, i will try to come up with a list
that will only involve myself and just a tiny bit of involvement of other
people if really needed. lemme try:
1) SAVE. SAVE. SAVE. hmmm, i might
have to delete this one because i can never say NO to somebody who would ask
money or material things from me (take note: somebody means friends and family
ONLY! heheh) but this year, i really need to save because as of this
writing, i have saved nothing! but probably if i would sell all my abubots
and makeup, i could come up with a hefty amount to open up a savings account.
ehehee
2) STOP BEING A PROCRASTINATOR yep, i am sooo
guilty of this. i’d buy things like books that i would think i would like
to read but most of the time, they will just end up somewhere collecting
dust. the good thing is, my sister is fond of reading…so most of the
books i buy, she gets to read it first.
3) THINK POSITIVE uh-ohh…this one’s
hard. i’ve been such a pessimist all my life just so i won’t get
disappointed when things don’t happen the way i expected them. but i will
try…i even bought my mom the famous book entitled “the secret” and i think i
need to read it too (goodluck!)
4) DO WHAT YOU ENJOY THE MOST and that
would be…shopping!? hahaha..kiddin’ well, maybe a year or two ago i
realized what i would be enjoying the most…and nope, it isn’t shopping but
makeup! kinda related i know. but this time, i need to make use of all
those i’ve bought and probably make money out of it too. If only i have
the time and money, i could’ve enrolled in a makeup school and study makeup
artistry. But for now, practicing on myself would be a good
alternative. then probably in the near future i can enroll or who
knows? Like they say, practice makes perfect (yeah, i wish!)
5) DONT TAKE EVERYTHING SERIOUSLY most
especially when it comes to work. do what you have to do then ignore them
wehehe…last year, i can say was the most stressful year for me when it concerns
work. I am not complaining with the work load but the fact that you had to
put up with your workmates’ “attitude” most esp. “ehem” anyways,
this year…i would try to limit myself. if i used to say yes to all tasks
being assigned to me even though it is no longer within my job description, i
will try to say No. When it comes to other concerns, i would
try not to think and wallow too much in it. I’ll try to shrug it off and
move on with life.
6) GYM! yeah…damn, i’ve been a member for
almost a year now and i am sure that i’ve been wasting so much money because i
was not attending often! geesshh….i’ll stop my membership after i
finished the 1-yr contract. such a waste of money… and i know,
it’s my fault as well. this could be the only way to de-stress myself and stay
fit but what the hell have i been doing???
7) BE ORGANIZED with my stuffs and
most of all, my life! set priorities and goals…for god’s sake jhengky,
grow up!
8) HAVE FUN stop being such a couch
potato on weekends. try to get a life dammit…go out with friends and have
fun. (but not every weekend ha)
9) GAIN MORE FRIENDS be active and do
meet-ups with the people you meet online (not date!) most especially those from
Girltalk.
10) PRAY AND BE THANKFUL FOR
EVERYTHING this i am really guilty of. i wanna be honest that most
of the time that i pray would be the times that i would be asking for
something. From now on, i will pray everyday and be thankful for whatever
that comes my way. Thy will be done…
11) GIVE IMPORTANCE TO THOSE WHO REALLY
LOVE AND CARES FOR YOU know who your real friends are and who truly stays by
your side no matter what. Stop being super nice to non-deserving people
who only wants to get something from you but don’t be a snob either. just
know who are the real people from the “fakes.”
12) FOLLOW THIS LIST. (hehehe)
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